I (Bryanna) have had a dream to adopt a baby from China for as long as I can remember; longer than I dreamed of having my own child. I did not grow up knowing anyone adopted from China, and did not know much about adoption in general. The only answer is that it was a dream placed in my heart by God. My close friends and family have heard me talk about this for years!
I was listening to a radio program this morning talking about how to know when God is calling you to step into something that seems too crazy and unreachable. The speaker suggested that when you think about the calling, it should make you excited and scared and nervous and happy all at once. It would be something that you know you would regret forever if you did not take that step. And this is the adoption journey for me! In one moment I’m so excited, and in the next I’m so nervous I could throw up!
We do not know the steps that will be in front of us. We do not know where the funding will come from. We don’t know if we will receive a boy or a girl, or what kind of medical condition he or she may have. But I know that if I do not do this, it will be an empty spot in my heart forever.
So here we go God. We are stepping off the ledge. Lead us deeper than our feet could ever wander…
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior…”